Kiss My Butt

The first, the last, my everything
And the answer to all my dreams
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are
I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two
You're all I'm living for
Your love I'll keep for evermore
You're the first, your the last, my everything
-barry white

(good song to scrapbook)



also defying gravity
and meatloaf
and popular
and bright sunshiney day
and love is a battlefield
and the wallflowers
and seal
and gold/silver

note to self- find a quote about lyrics "connect with your soul" / "crosses paths with your life"

yay im 20!

today kinda stinks b/c i was sick all day, but i just got back from sleeping over at chris's, so not even a headache/cold could ruin the day. last night we drank, he gave me presents (a really nice white gold/diamond necklace, and the DVD Office Space) and in the morning we watched the movie, went mini golfing, then hungout at the mall and got a smoothie and dinner. then we headed back to his house were i fell asleep in his lap for an hour, and let me tell you, hes the sweetest boyfriend a girl could ask for. then i drove home in the thunderstorm and now im stuck at home all headachy. oo i was so mad! i was gone just for one day and my brother ate my whole cake! and it was a Fudgey-The-Whale. what a pig.

right now im just hangin out updating my new ipod nano. :-) my family got me it with all the accessories, and although i was sad that i had to give up my old one that ive had since i was a junior, im starting to really like it now.

also my friends threw me a porn themed party for my birthday and bought me fuzzy handcuffs. lol i cant wait to see the pictures.

ive missed livejournal, i seem to just use it for scrapbooking ideas, which is lacking as is right now. oww headachyy.

what else is new? schools really easy, im obnoxious and love the fact that im doing better than most of my class, but thats only b/c i already took precalc in my old school.....and i got a really cute bracelet during my break at work! why am i getting so materialistic suddenly?

ok im pooped and sex and the citys back on, the end.

note to self- download barry white. lol

*edit*

depressed no more!!

:-) running really has a good effect on you.

todays exam was the only one i was really shakey on, i feel like such a doosh in class but i really cant stay focused for 2 hours when i know im just going to teach myself everything at home before the exam.

what else is new?

its been 3 months with the boy :-). the other night we had a pillow fight in my room and i got clobbered lol

last night sarah jude and i went to see The Omen... eek! poor sarah was in the middle and had us linking arms and holding her tight. lol. i really liked the movie though. esp the ending b/c it wasnt dramatically drawn out.

lotsa movies this summer (for me atleast, i normally never go)--> DaVinci Code, Keeping up with the Steins (a really good one!), and The Omen.

i really wanna see that Adam Sandler one Click, and that movie about the fashion magazine with Susan Sarandon and Anne Hathaway

ok, workout time and shower

ok today i gotta balance my check book and see how much i have to spend/save

1. i do one months worth of tanning ($30?) w/membership
2. get nails done? (not necessary)

3- gym is covered by summer school! sweet. free gym AND pool. (dress for gym every class)
4. ebay products

possibly the last thursday night, friday morning with chris :-(

right now im at his place, right when i came back to campus i came here

everyones here: brian, aaron, kevin (duh the three of them live here) joe, aaron h, crystal, and anna marie.

im a bit pooped, so i took a music break. im tired of playing asshole. we played pleanty of rounds. i hate switching spots though.

i hope my finals are easy

im kinda really confused. i dont know how to use this last week to its best. i wish my finals ended early and i could stay on campus. or that i had only one last final so i had time to jerk around.

last weekend was really busy, i cant believe its already thurs night/friday morning.

chris is really drunk and i cant keep typing without being molested ;-)

ooo can't touch this just came on :-D!!


i need to know
before we go any further
will you love me forever?

i am pooped. 5am-3am, then 8am till now. i really could use some sleep.

i took my exam, ive never felt so tired in my life. i hope i did well, i couldnt think straight.

all i have to do is wait for my acting class where Dom and i are going to finally perform it infront of the teacher, and i gotta dress up again. ok, seriously, this is the 3rd time ive worn the same outfit to class, and i really wish i had time to wash it but i dont till after class.

i wish i had more flex left, id so get a caffienated beverage or something.

:-) Anat comes home tomorrow. i'm losing track on whos comming home early, but i cant wait.
cinco de mayo is tonight, along with stephs birthday, i have 2 diff places to go, and i think im gonna bring Beth with me. I'll prolly go to Andys. i just wont be such a mess this time lol.

::yawn:: so i dont think i have to do any more micro this semester, just sit in 2 more classes and not take the exam, thats kinda cool.
oh shit, i just remembered i haveta print out my acting report. its kinda really crappy, but i didnt care when i wrote it. i dont think shes really going to read all of them.

ugh and i gotta treck across campus to get the fan that i left at Chris's place. maybe i can bribe him to meet me at the bradley center with it :-P. doubtful.

ok, i think im going to lay down for a few, then get ready.

quickass review:

you've spoiled it
fat lot you care tom longmeyer!
i dont have to put up with you on the day im going to die!
i can atleast have some privacy
some quality time with myself as i prepare to... you know
climb over me
come on im getting cold
climb over me or i'll push you off
ugh you're just like my father
cowardly, weak, ineffectual
its too windy
Let Go!
Kiss me and i'll jump off and take you with me
oh do i have bad breath? i have mints some where
you should have shaved, you're death day, the least you coulda done
well if you took a little pride in yourself
mary, tom
mary freestone tom
your hearts beating really fast, its about to push me off this ledge
you're crowding me tom
well stop it!
well you should have planned ahead a little better
i dont care
i mean i dont care if you die, i care if i die!
that gives us a little more room
thats nice
dont be a cry baby
whyd you come out here if you dont wanna die?
you're just trying to manipulate me
gimmie your hand
just gimmie your hand
comeon, lets go inside, maybe we can get some coffee together
HELP!!!

ok, its golden ;-)

ah yes, another entry for today, but its worth it.

after all that this morning, i plucked my eyebrows, cleaned up my room, then watched Super Sweet Sixteen until Chris was ready

we got lunch, then headed off to the reservation. we walked all the way up to the waterfall! unfortunately there was a naked man tanning at the top of the waterfall, so that was kinda disturbing. but a good hike none the less. I think we're going to try and fish at the Res this summer, we saw this whole list of fish that are stocked in there, and itd be really fun.

then we came back (all sweaty and dehydrated), lazed around a bit, and Chris gave me earrings!! how sweet is that? i was really surprised b/c like, i always nagged/teased him about trying to be romantic and spoiling me, i just didnt think hed get me jewelry. :-) btw this is the first piece of jewelry ive ever recieved from a man other than my dad. so its extra special. :-)

then we got food with his friends, and i headed out to finish up my term paper. ok, never have i taken overtime to do a report. lol i was like, out the door at 8:06 and class started at 8:05. lol.

so now im just relaxing, about to shower, and then i need to cram for my exam tomorrow at 10am. im psyched. i dont mind tomorrows exam b/c its my last micro exam ever, and since this paper is in, a whole load is off my shoulders. :-)

15 days till summer

ok so far today Cha and i woke up at 5am for no reason at all, contemplated watching a movie to pass the time (yes at 5am lol)
i wrote my 3 page report, ran 2 miles, crocheted, and showered.. all before 9am.

this is like, by far, THE MOST productive day of my life.

and best thing is, its going to be beautiful out (80 degrees) so i plan on tanning out (at the rez maybe?) studying for my micro exam/first final tomorrow, editing my term paper, and going to my class tonight.... at 8pm. oh man, if only i didnt have that exam, and i had a car, today i totally woulda gone somewhere awesome.

oh well, summer in 15 days. :-)

summer in 15 days :-(

the more summers getting closer, the closer im getting to Chris.
chris, to whom ive already spoke to this morning. lol (he had to get up early b/c hes driving back to school now)

i really wish i had lots of cash, and a high paying job to look forward to. i really want that tiffany's necklace. oh, dare to dream.

ok, time to dry my hair and get pretty! :-)

wow. i havent updated in a while.

right now im in a shopping mood.

shopping for things i cant afford, that is.


i'm trying to find this keychain on ebay. so far no good. $52


this ones so cute! $98


this cute ass charm $48


this ones cute.. uh uh $375. next to this, those coach items were a bargen


$348.
whew. aw man, if only i had a car right now (paid for) and got a waitressing or high paying job. damn



aww man if i could chose my top ones i wish i could work for, itd be the necklace, keychain, and coin purse....but am i willing to drop $525?

lol do i even have $525 to my name??

this kinda totally sucks. i'm at home, i dont have AIM, and my internet connection wont let me check my mail....

but to top it off?

i have a stiff neck.


ugh. and its the worst kind too. its the kind where i can hardly move my right arm, which pretty much semiparalizes my life. my right ear is also groggy and my whole upper body is contorted to the left to compensate for everything. ughh. i feel like im crippled.

oo i just realized, i can knit to pass the time while i'm dead on the couch. oh man, if i had my needles on the ride home from UMD, it would have been so much more tollerable.... 5 1/2 hours on a bus and i was literally surrounded by FOB's. everyone, and i mean everyone didnt speak english. well except for Sasha, behind me. the guy who insisted on talking to me and he was really weird and had a rough accent, and when someone called him on his cell he said his name like 18 times and spelt it like 18 times to make up for his accent. i seriously wanted to grab the phone out of his hands and help him communicate. lol neurotic, i know, but i pretty much had anxiety the whole trip.. and thats way too much stress than necessary over nothing.

UMD was pretty awesome, there was a lot of down time though.

Friday - 4 hour bus ride next to a pretty chill guy, made it a bit more bearable. Mike and Steve picked me up, and taught me Four Corners in the pike basement, then i went to a Blackout Mixer, saw Dino there, played some pong, it was really crowded, but i know if i went to school there and knew a lot of the ppl i woulda loved it. Then we went to Cornerstone, which was a complete dump lol but the place to be at night, and i can see its appeal. Then i headed back to Judy's, which unfortunately i was already drunk, i wish we had met up earlier at partied together, but it never seemed to happen.

The next day judy and i napped through the Duke game, which is fine by me, but a disgrace to the school, and we kinda just lazed around until she had to leave for a date, and i headed out with Mike again. Mike and i chilled in his awesome living room and watched a movie on his big screen. mmm i loved that beanbag. Then wepregamed at Steves, which was cool but i was kinda getting bored b/c i wasnt in the mood for drinking games, and then we headed to another sorority mixer, Pam & Maggie's. I did multiple shots of burben with Maggie, which wasnt a good idea, but we got completely trashed, which was kinda funny. I had a heart to heart with Pam ..which i am still laughing about. and then we ended up at another sorority house to chill. Again, i didnt hear from Judy so im guessing she was having a good night, but i still wished she wanted to join me. I kinda blacked out after almost chugging a cup of straight vodka, thanks to my brother for saving my life on that one. (i dont think ive been that bad ever), and passed out at Judys again... which i totally felt guilty for b/c i really dont remember the night. In the morning i kinda just got cleaned up and packed b/c she and her roomie had homework to do, and my brother and i got breakfast and headed to DC to chill for a little bit, and then for me to catch my bus in Chinatown.

my whole weekend was pretty awesome, i definately saw a lot of people i knew, i kinda wish judy wanted to come party with us, and i still feel weird/bad that all i really did with her was sleep in her room. oh well, it happens? i guess?

eek my neck still really hurts. i wanna go back to school and cuddle with someone, maybe get a neck massage? ;-) haha j/k i'm no princess... but this stiff neck realllly hurts! i really should be doing my report right now, 2 pages left, but im in no mood to research, and i cant even send the info to myself in an email b/c i cant access it, DAMNIT.

i need to talk to the woman about NSE, i definately am applying. no diggity, no doubt.